Why I sing to myself in the car. Why I dance around my living room. Why I bounce my head ridiculously at work. Why I laugh (apparently loudly) at work.

It’s crazy. You’ve come into my life. Caught me off guard, and made me realize that there really are people out there who have the same capacity for caring that I do. You’ve reminded me why I love… well, me. Why I’m so happy with myself. You always point out these things about me that I may know, or may have an idea of, but aren’t even apparent until they come out of your mouth. And then you show me why you’re so in love with yourself. Your confidence. Your intelligence. It all comes out and makes you the most attractive woman that I’ve ever met. I’m so genuinely intrigued by you, that I feel like a sleuth myself. Trying to learn more, connect the dots, make whatever sense out of you that I can. And it’s a wonderful experience.

You make me happy. That smile on your face makes me happy. That sound you make, literally melts me… every single time I hear it escape your lips. Those beautiful, slim, soft lips. And god, your eyes are amazing. I can’t help but just stare and take you all in whenever you’re near; I just want to reach out and touch you. I want to kiss your lips. I want to put my arm around your waist, pull you close, and let you lay your head on my shoulder, breathing slowly against my neck. Just thinking about it gives me chills.

It’s what you do to me. It’s how you make me feel. It’s what you mean to me. I’m amazed. Surprised. Caught off guard. Happy. I just can’t help but smile.

Although I’m not going to sit here and go into long depth about the past year, I did decide to sit down and read the last 14-15 pages of my blog. After going through it, I’ve realized how much I’ve been through in just the past year. The ups and downs, the interesting things I’ve done, and felt, and read, and wrote about. How much has changed… and how little at the same time.

It’s pretty amazing what can happen in the short span of a year. I’m still pointed forward, thankfully. Although not moving, I think I’m setting myself up to really get things going. Moving back home for a couple of weeks will help me save some, so hopefully I’ll be fully prepared to move back out soon after. The ‘search’ has pretty much ended… I’m not putting all my eggs in one basket… but there is a girl. And she makes me ridiculously happy. I can’t help but smile sitting here just thinking about her, let alone when we’re together. Since New Years, it’s been the most exciting part of my life. And it just keeps going. I can’t wait to see what comes next, and look forward to just getting to know her.

My projects are all on hold, although just reading through my blog tonight sparked a new idea which I think has a lot of potential. Obviously, only time will tell. But I’ve got a good feeling about this year. I brought it in right this year, no fights, no arguing… quite the opposite actually. It was one of my best NYE’s ever. Definitely a great start to what should amount to be a great year.

Here’s to 2012. (And the world ending and all that jazz if that’s what you’re into.)