I’m sitting here snooping through my friend’s Spotify accounts tonight, and I come across this song title, “The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows” by Brand New. Now, as far as the song goes, I’m not really that big of a fan.Despite this… I listen to the song, and I zone out.

I zone out because that song title really has me thinking. I don’t know what the song lyrics pertain to, or what the title is about, but for me, the title just made me instantly think about this girl. How she sometimes makes me feel like she knows these things about me that no one really knows. She gets me. She knows how to make me smile. She knows how to make me laugh. She genuinely makes me happy. And the reason she has me in such awe, is because it isn’t the same old thing. It’s not the typical, run of the mill, cookie cutter, dating scenario.

It’s more like…. To me, at least… It’s more like a friggin’ movie. It’s like I’m in some fairy tale. The way we met, the way our relationship has developed… It’s been ridiculously cute, and sweet, and natural. I haven’t had to force myself to be something I’m not. We’ve been pretty up front with each other with a lot of things. She’s shared some big things with me, and I’ve done the same thing. I think that the fact we have a foundation that has been based on so much honesty is a really good thing.

We think alike. We have the same tastes in music, beer, wine, movies… the list goes on. We have the same beliefs and a lot of the same fundamentals. She’s sweet, attractive, driven, and talented. She draws… We won’t talk about the fact that she has yet to draw anything for me, but she does draw. She’s so focused, and she has faith in me and my potential. A support system. One of those things that is ridiculously important in a relationship. Believing in each other is what keeps you going when the rest of the world quits on you.

How to deal with me when I’m in a grumpy mood. How to make me smile when I’ve had a bad day. What to say to make me feel important, special. These are all the quiet things that no one ever knows… yet somehow, she does. Now you tell me. What’s that mean?

Why I sing to myself in the car. Why I dance around my living room. Why I bounce my head ridiculously at work. Why I laugh (apparently loudly) at work.

It’s crazy. You’ve come into my life. Caught me off guard, and made me realize that there really are people out there who have the same capacity for caring that I do. You’ve reminded me why I love… well, me. Why I’m so happy with myself. You always point out these things about me that I may know, or may have an idea of, but aren’t even apparent until they come out of your mouth. And then you show me why you’re so in love with yourself. Your confidence. Your intelligence. It all comes out and makes you the most attractive woman that I’ve ever met. I’m so genuinely intrigued by you, that I feel like a sleuth myself. Trying to learn more, connect the dots, make whatever sense out of you that I can. And it’s a wonderful experience.

You make me happy. That smile on your face makes me happy. That sound you make, literally melts me… every single time I hear it escape your lips. Those beautiful, slim, soft lips. And god, your eyes are amazing. I can’t help but just stare and take you all in whenever you’re near; I just want to reach out and touch you. I want to kiss your lips. I want to put my arm around your waist, pull you close, and let you lay your head on my shoulder, breathing slowly against my neck. Just thinking about it gives me chills.

It’s what you do to me. It’s how you make me feel. It’s what you mean to me. I’m amazed. Surprised. Caught off guard. Happy. I just can’t help but smile.

Although I’m not going to sit here and go into long depth about the past year, I did decide to sit down and read the last 14-15 pages of my blog. After going through it, I’ve realized how much I’ve been through in just the past year. The ups and downs, the interesting things I’ve done, and felt, and read, and wrote about. How much has changed… and how little at the same time.

It’s pretty amazing what can happen in the short span of a year. I’m still pointed forward, thankfully. Although not moving, I think I’m setting myself up to really get things going. Moving back home for a couple of weeks will help me save some, so hopefully I’ll be fully prepared to move back out soon after. The ‘search’ has pretty much ended… I’m not putting all my eggs in one basket… but there is a girl. And she makes me ridiculously happy. I can’t help but smile sitting here just thinking about her, let alone when we’re together. Since New Years, it’s been the most exciting part of my life. And it just keeps going. I can’t wait to see what comes next, and look forward to just getting to know her.

My projects are all on hold, although just reading through my blog tonight sparked a new idea which I think has a lot of potential. Obviously, only time will tell. But I’ve got a good feeling about this year. I brought it in right this year, no fights, no arguing… quite the opposite actually. It was one of my best NYE’s ever. Definitely a great start to what should amount to be a great year.

Here’s to 2012. (And the world ending and all that jazz if that’s what you’re into.)

Check out Thephobia.com.

Read.

It’s my future wife’s blog, and it’s awesome.

Looks like an old friend has inspired me to come back and write yet again. The same friend who inspired this blog, and more than likely has inspired me for my entire life. Sometimes people don’t really take a moment to realize just how special a life is. Not your own life… but someone else’s. They are a human being, they feel, they see, they touch and everything at the core is exactly as you are. At their basic level, they care about life just as much as the next.

And then think about the amount of time someone spends in your life. Not the people you think of right off the bat because you’ve known them almost your entire life… I’m talking about the co-workers, the fellow student, the passing ex, or fleeing fling. The average time you spend knowing someone that isn’t part of a major branch of your family. Maybe what… 5-7 years? Would you think longer… shorter? I mean, either way, it’s not long in the span of a lifetime, let alone the span of time. Life as a human isn’t even a blink of an eye to the grand scheme of things.

Now further break that down into the actual face time you get with this person. Again, not the online interactions, late night drunk dials or middle of the workday texts. Actual face time with these people.

And you end up with a select few. A small amount of people that will share your life with you, your experiences with you. So few will experience your first home run and watch you get married. Even less, or none, may then see you walk your own daughter down the aisle.

A life is so important, yet daily, we take it for granted. Well… Most of us… and Most of the time. I’ve tried to be better at this lately. Truly appreciating the time I get to interact with someone else, and get some time to spend with my best friends during their crazy schedules of school, work, planning marriages, taking care of their children, and spending time with their own friends and family. Everyone is seeing less and less of each other as we press onwards with life and work towards our futures.

I hope to never lose sight of this feeling. Where I wake up and literally thank god for the people in my life. Without my friends, my sister, my family… I don’t know where I would be… But they know that. People like the co-worker who I Facebook stalk because she is such a genuine person and inspirational, or the person I just met but genuinely enjoyed spending time with, or old friends who I have a new appreciation for… They don’t know, and I hope I get a chance to express to them that I’m thankful for their time. The little time they spend with me throughout their entire life… Thank you. Thank you for allowing me to share those moments with you, because I appreciate them, and will forever keep them in my heart.

I hope this is at least a good start…

What I’m listening to : City & Colour. What a great band…

Cliche’ I know… but fitting. It’s been a good week. Productive. I’ve gone through all kinds of ups and downs, but ultimately they all pushed me towards the same thing… getting things in line and pushing forwards with my goals. Working out, building the website, getting all the paperwork in line… I’ve got a lot of things to do, but all for the better. This week was time well spent. Starbucks with the partner, lunch with a good friend, and lots of conversation spent on bettering ourselves and striving forward with our goals.

Things won’t be easy, they’ll pretty much be the complete opposite. But at the end of the line, it’ll all be worth it. When it comes to making a change that matters, it’s all worth it. Cheers to a new year, Cheers to good friends, Cheers to good family, and Cheers to success.