Why I sing to myself in the car. Why I dance around my living room. Why I bounce my head ridiculously at work. Why I laugh (apparently loudly) at work.

It’s crazy. You’ve come into my life. Caught me off guard, and made me realize that there really are people out there who have the same capacity for caring that I do. You’ve reminded me why I love… well, me. Why I’m so happy with myself. You always point out these things about me that I may know, or may have an idea of, but aren’t even apparent until they come out of your mouth. And then you show me why you’re so in love with yourself. Your confidence. Your intelligence. It all comes out and makes you the most attractive woman that I’ve ever met. I’m so genuinely intrigued by you, that I feel like a sleuth myself. Trying to learn more, connect the dots, make whatever sense out of you that I can. And it’s a wonderful experience.

You make me happy. That smile on your face makes me happy. That sound you make, literally melts me… every single time I hear it escape your lips. Those beautiful, slim, soft lips. And god, your eyes are amazing. I can’t help but just stare and take you all in whenever you’re near; I just want to reach out and touch you. I want to kiss your lips. I want to put my arm around your waist, pull you close, and let you lay your head on my shoulder, breathing slowly against my neck. Just thinking about it gives me chills.

It’s what you do to me. It’s how you make me feel. It’s what you mean to me. I’m amazed. Surprised. Caught off guard. Happy. I just can’t help but smile.

Looks like an old friend has inspired me to come back and write yet again. The same friend who inspired this blog, and more than likely has inspired me for my entire life. Sometimes people don’t really take a moment to realize just how special a life is. Not your own life… but someone else’s. They are a human being, they feel, they see, they touch and everything at the core is exactly as you are. At their basic level, they care about life just as much as the next.

And then think about the amount of time someone spends in your life. Not the people you think of right off the bat because you’ve known them almost your entire life… I’m talking about the co-workers, the fellow student, the passing ex, or fleeing fling. The average time you spend knowing someone that isn’t part of a major branch of your family. Maybe what… 5-7 years? Would you think longer… shorter? I mean, either way, it’s not long in the span of a lifetime, let alone the span of time. Life as a human isn’t even a blink of an eye to the grand scheme of things.

Now further break that down into the actual face time you get with this person. Again, not the online interactions, late night drunk dials or middle of the workday texts. Actual face time with these people.

And you end up with a select few. A small amount of people that will share your life with you, your experiences with you. So few will experience your first home run and watch you get married. Even less, or none, may then see you walk your own daughter down the aisle.

A life is so important, yet daily, we take it for granted. Well… Most of us… and Most of the time. I’ve tried to be better at this lately. Truly appreciating the time I get to interact with someone else, and get some time to spend with my best friends during their crazy schedules of school, work, planning marriages, taking care of their children, and spending time with their own friends and family. Everyone is seeing less and less of each other as we press onwards with life and work towards our futures.

I hope to never lose sight of this feeling. Where I wake up and literally thank god for the people in my life. Without my friends, my sister, my family… I don’t know where I would be… But they know that. People like the co-worker who I Facebook stalk because she is such a genuine person and inspirational, or the person I just met but genuinely enjoyed spending time with, or old friends who I have a new appreciation for… They don’t know, and I hope I get a chance to express to them that I’m thankful for their time. The little time they spend with me throughout their entire life… Thank you. Thank you for allowing me to share those moments with you, because I appreciate them, and will forever keep them in my heart.

I hope this is at least a good start…

What I’m listening to : City & Colour. What a great band…